Let Yourself Flow My Darlings

"You great star, what would your happiness be had you not those for whom you shine?" - Friedrich Nietzsche

Never be fearful of letting your intensity out......for everyone who is pushed back or repelled by it, there will be three more who will be pulled towards it. You beautiful individuals, why do you exile yourselves within your own walls of imprisonment, when you hold the key to your own freedom and escape of the psyche? Why do you gently flicker, when your flame could blaze brighter than a thousand suns!!

Live, Burn, Create, Destroy, Fuck, Sneer, Laugh, Love, Dance, Kiss, Conquer.........but do so with honesty and fullness of action, do not hesitate in the performance, either do it or do not do it! There is no room for breaking down half-way, go the distance or do not even start it, let it not be done with half-measures,or hesitancy.......let your passions be the guide, and your Will be the driver.........most of you will know how to live once you have learnt to trust........in yourself!

“How delightful are the pleasures of the imagination! In those delectable moments, the whole world is ours; not a single creature resists us, we devastate the world, we repopulate it with new objects which, in turn, we immolate. The means to every crime is ours, and we employ them all, we multiply the horror a hundredfold”
― Donatien-Alphonse-François de Sade, Les Prosperites du Vice  

Even if specific things cannot be done in the physical realm, there is no excuse for not exploring them in the psyche, do it!! Let it flow throughout your delirious imagination, sink yourself deeply into whatever mental scenario turns you on, expands you, fulfils your own personal Will, feeds you, inspires you, brings happiness, desirous of that fulsome Dionysian experience, do all within the mind.......but do not lie to yourself, do not cheat yourself, do not push certain things away and shout "You are not of me"..........because they are YOU!! Do not criticise or self-judge your own images and visions, let them flow through you freely, you are not the critic you are the conduit. Never lie to yourself for by lieing to one's self, you not only cheat yourself out of the mental experience of something new but you will be the slave to your own guilt, your own self-repression, you will be your own hangman and not your own saviour.

"Are your convictions so fragile that mine cannot stand in opposition to them? Is your God so illusory that the presence of my Devil reveals his insufficiency?" - Donatien-Alphonse-François de Sade

Do you stand naked, shamed, fearful of these delightful images that float through you, why are you turning away? They ask only that you accept them, that you integrate them, that you do not do them the disservice of denying them, ignoring them, pushing them away.  Do you grasp the angel on your shoulder, begging and holding her near whilst kicking away the devil upon the other? Would your force of Will, passion and strength not be more cohesive, more connected, more wholesome if the angel and devil were not to make forth a pact of inter-connectedness whereby one does not judge the other? Let them come forth and bring their arms together around the other, let their passions play forth, let them be co-joined into a wholeness.........for by doing so you not only bring forth the totality of your own being, it may also be a way to true fulfillment of being. 

Life as Feast - My Own Perspective

Life is a feast in which everything is there for all to taste...and I ain't the type to go on a diet ;-)

My own take on life has always been, shall we say, "gregarious". As someone who buys into various philosophies that enhance and are "active" type of philosophies (particularly those of Say Friedrich Nietzsche, Crowley's Thelema from a philosophical perspective, and Existentialist philosophy where by the individual has to live life by their own guidelines, their own manner of "Being" and also one's own level of choice.......choices, we can't avoid them no matter how difficult they may be. My perspective on life and how one should live it has always been an individualistic thing. Choose or don't choose, there is no choice but to choose. Even if you choose not to choose, you are still paradoxically choosing not to choose as Sartre points out in "Being and Nothingness", even refusing to go to point A, B, or C et al is still making a choice. Choice, a damn hard and tricky thing to avoid. But why does this thing of "choosing" mess with so many people's heads? Why can having to choose bring humans to such a level of fear, procrastination and downright paranoia about life? Simple........its because of a little thing called "freedom".......and freedom most people believe is a good thing, right?

It is! Until you realise (and it's like an abyss of fear that can open up in some people when they truly realise this) that real freedom means the choice to do or be literally anything........yep, anything (obviously if you're wanting to be an mage with dazzling super-powers of turning people into talking flowers or transform others or yourself into a green ogre etc then we may have a problem, eh)? :-)

When a vista of possibilities opens up before us, its easy to be both dazzled by the options and also fearful of them, not just the big life options such as choosing a job, marriage (is this person right for me, really, how do I know that gorgeous guy or girl who I could feel a deeper connection with won't just come around the corner) or doing something that might just be a point of finger-pointing or disturbing to one's family and friends that is a huge change of gears or path to them. Imagine the consternation that one would get for example if someone suddenly announced before their local Church congregation that they no longer could be a Christian, but had become an atheist or (gasp, shock horror) a full blown Satanist - yeah, awkward moment eh, and yet life from an existentialist perspective would demand that you be authentic to yourself rather than be bound to the dictates of what one may state the "crowd", the "herd" or just plain ol "people" want from you, and will (in some ways) emotionally blackmail you to given the chance and the person involved. And don't kid one's self on that people don't use emotional blackmail or try to label you "the bad guy", because when one truly awakens to the possibilities of what one can do in life, then some within life will try to do just that. Keep you in the small, awkward box that would be easier to keep one's self in rather than spread out on your own way, your own Will, your own truth. And that's the hardest part of being "authentic", trying your damn best to stay true to thyself in stead of taking the easy option where others are being kept happy but yourself is remaining in a position of unhappiness.  As Nietzsche once stated "The surest way to corrupt a youth is to instruct him to hold in higher esteem those who think alike than those who think differently"......conformity has a terrible price if one is forced to conform to every little thing that people would have you do and think similar to them rather than thinking for your own self.

However there is the other side of the coin as well when one realises the dizzying possibilities of life - what I label the "Dionsyian" experience (and in other blog-posts I will go further into this)........that moment when emotionally, mentally (hell and even spiritually as well) when one in their minds eye see's across the great plains and mountains their choices laid out as if life was a banquet to taste, that wonderful dizzying vista of possibility, and a healthy affirmation of life kicks in..........that dazzling, ecstatic "Its all mine" experience! Remember the first time you ever kissed someone (the delightful, sensual brush of lips the increasing heartbeat, that sense of pure joy at the pure touch of another's intimate being merging with yours), or heard a piece of music that lifted you up and done strange things inside you like a mystical ecstatic experience of pure joy and boundless energy, a real boost, a get-up-and-go feeling of being unconquerable and that the universe was right there in the palm of your hand? That's the pure feeling of life-affirmation, that feeling of life as a feast, and pure joy at being alive! As it states in the Thelemic holy book "Liber AL vel Legis", Chapter 2 Verse 9. "Remember all ye that existence is pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they pass & are done; but there is that which remains".  Will life be a total joy? Of course not, there will always be moments of grief, sadness, things that go wrong etc etc in every one's etc etc in every one's existence, but "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" as Nietzsche once stated and as it states there in the Law, your sorrows are as shadows, and they too shall pass, nothing stays the same forever, change is the only constant as Heraclitus says. They may terrify or scar one at the time, but treat them as learning experiences, even the darkest moments of life can be loved if one understands that only growth can result from the hardest of experiences if your Will is strong enough. One can learn to say a life-affirming "Yes" to all things. As Jim Morrison of The Doors once sang "No one here gets out alive", so break on through and light your own fire as well as others whilst you got the time, live!

Train hard, play hard, fight hard, love hard, live hard, laugh hard, sing hard.......




(The above blogpost was originally composed for my blogspot on Temple Illuminatus, and first appeared there)